Thursday, November 30, 2006

blarg.

i can't drop calculus.

i can't pass calculus.

i can't stand calculus.

what the heck can i do?

i can't unfriend some people.

i can't ignore some people.

i can't stand some people.

what the heck can i do?

today was such a horrible day. i don't know why but i just can't seem to settle down. my mind is just so overwhelmed by everything.. school, family, friends...

i was avoiding a lot of my problems today. when i was faced with something, a problem, i just wanted to run away and hide somewhere. and hiding, i actually did. i missed half a day of school, i missed my bio isp presentation, i missed my wc test, i missed my math test-- again. i hid from my mom when she came home and quickly left when she went somewhere.

what am i doing? why am i running away from my life... from God? i'm so reluctant... why...

i can't face Him. i can't bring myself to face my shame. i try so hard but i get no where. i try so hard with school, with family, with friends... especially with school and friends.. and i still get no where.

God, what am i supposed to do now? i am just so, so... lost... i don't know what to do anymore...

.... i dont know what to do anymore... -__-

the butterflies played at 8:35 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 1 of them free

i'm the butterfly catcher

  • seese/si si
  • Christian
  • 4bg/hbg/c
  • odd, loyal, random, blunt

my butterfly catching days


the blissful sounds of the world


    • -:- Do You Know - Enrique Iglesias

    Do you know
    Do you know
    Do you know

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    If birds flying south's a sign of changes
    At least you can predict this every year
    Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
    I can’t get it to speak
    Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
    I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
    Look in your eyes to see there's something about me
    I’m standing on the edge
    and I don’t know what else to give

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    How can I love you How can I love you
    How can I love you How can I love you
    If you just don’t talk to me, babe

    I flow through my act
    The question is she needed
    And decide all the man I can ever be
    Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
    I could never see us ending like this
    Seeing your face no more on my pillow
    Is a scene that’s never happened to me
    But after this episode I don’t see,
    you could never tell the next thing life could be

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know,
    Do you know,
    Do you know,

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed