Tuesday, November 14, 2006
sigh.
i don't know why i try so hard.
i hate how i always find ways to get hurt. i find out things i don't like knowing, even though i had an idea before. i'm just so impulsive.
in the end, i always end up in tears.
sigh.
if only there was another way to do things. give me another way, God. i don't want this anymore.
You are the One
there's no one else
who lifts me up
and gives me water from the well
but there's a hole
that seems to drain it all away
and once again i'm left in fear and doubt
when all my strength is crying out
so here i am again
willing to be opened up and broken like a
flower in the rain
tell me what have i to do
to die and then be raised
to reach beyond the pain
like a flower in the rain
the evil wind
it blows a storm
to rock my world
just when i think i'm safe and warm
i'm led astray
far too easily
it's always hard for me to say i'm wrong
until i know i can't go on
Lord, You have searched me and know
when i sleep and when i rise
You're familiar with all my ways
even the darkness will shine
like the day
when You look into my heart
edit//
um. sorry, this post is weird. you can ignore the beginning and focus on the song (jaci velasquez, flower in the rain). i really like this songs cuz it really speaks to me and what i'm going through these days. i've been really stubborn with things and well, it reminds me that i'm not in charge of my life. He's always watching, taking care of me when i'm just all alone. only He knows all that i'm going through and all that i feel. it's also only Him who can help me out of these holes i've fallen into. i need to remember that throughout the day, throughout the problems, and throughout the joys, He's there, going through all of it with me.
and to tell you the truth, it's so hard sometimes. but i think i'll manage. =)
i hate how i always find ways to get hurt. i find out things i don't like knowing, even though i had an idea before. i'm just so impulsive.
in the end, i always end up in tears.
sigh.
if only there was another way to do things. give me another way, God. i don't want this anymore.
You are the One
there's no one else
who lifts me up
and gives me water from the well
but there's a hole
that seems to drain it all away
and once again i'm left in fear and doubt
when all my strength is crying out
so here i am again
willing to be opened up and broken like a
flower in the rain
tell me what have i to do
to die and then be raised
to reach beyond the pain
like a flower in the rain
the evil wind
it blows a storm
to rock my world
just when i think i'm safe and warm
i'm led astray
far too easily
it's always hard for me to say i'm wrong
until i know i can't go on
Lord, You have searched me and know
when i sleep and when i rise
You're familiar with all my ways
even the darkness will shine
like the day
when You look into my heart
edit//
um. sorry, this post is weird. you can ignore the beginning and focus on the song (jaci velasquez, flower in the rain). i really like this songs cuz it really speaks to me and what i'm going through these days. i've been really stubborn with things and well, it reminds me that i'm not in charge of my life. He's always watching, taking care of me when i'm just all alone. only He knows all that i'm going through and all that i feel. it's also only Him who can help me out of these holes i've fallen into. i need to remember that throughout the day, throughout the problems, and throughout the joys, He's there, going through all of it with me.
and to tell you the truth, it's so hard sometimes. but i think i'll manage. =)
the butterflies played at 8:46 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 7 of them free
-:-people in the crowd set 7 of them free