Monday, December 11, 2006

i have no decent title

sigh.

there are some really annoying people in my life that i wouldn't mind getting rid of. they're so insensitive and just so... self centered.

but that's mean of me to say something like that. i'm sure you all have someone you would rather not know.

i'm so stressed out. with work, with family... just with people in general. people make me very tired and i'm very, very tired. i'm so ... bored. everything is so tedious.

mmm, this is fun, just typing away and not stopping to think second thoughts.

you know, boris, if you ever read this, i hope you and jaimie never get married because you don't deserve her. she tries to be there for you and tries hard. even though she's lied to you many many times, it was just because she did it out of the fear of you blowing up on her and walking away. i'm not saying that it's right for her to lie cuz she knows damn well that i believe what she did was wrong. but she's only human, and like you say, we're not perfect. why can't you understand something so... simple? oh, that's right, you're too logical for that, right? i mean, everything has to have a right or wrong answer and nothing can vary in between? and i think because of that, you're not gonna have her. if you think so techinically, you're never gonna understand that being in a relationship with someone isn't just a "responsibility and an act of intimacy". if you don't even try to understand her... try to hear her out, why do you even call her your girlfriend? i mean, her dad can say the things you say to her.

i'm very angry right now. and i'm very... upset. the above paragraph is what i've been dealing with for these two days. i call it a crisis because it's the biggest problem i've dealt with (that has to do with relationships). i just can't stand technical people. i also can't stand people who won't give someone a chance just because they had a bad experience with someone else. it's not fair. why should one person get the shaft when it wasn't them who caused a problem. why should they be compared to a past relationship. people are different, every one. so why is it that someone always gets hurt unfairly?

i'm going home.
school sucks.

the butterflies played at 2:59 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 1 of them free

i'm the butterfly catcher

  • seese/si si
  • Christian
  • 4bg/hbg/c
  • odd, loyal, random, blunt

my butterfly catching days


the blissful sounds of the world


  • -:- Do You Know - Enrique Iglesias

    Do you know
    Do you know
    Do you know

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    If birds flying south's a sign of changes
    At least you can predict this every year
    Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
    I can’t get it to speak
    Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
    I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
    Look in your eyes to see there's something about me
    I’m standing on the edge
    and I don’t know what else to give

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    How can I love you How can I love you
    How can I love you How can I love you
    If you just don’t talk to me, babe

    I flow through my act
    The question is she needed
    And decide all the man I can ever be
    Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
    I could never see us ending like this
    Seeing your face no more on my pillow
    Is a scene that’s never happened to me
    But after this episode I don’t see,
    you could never tell the next thing life could be

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know,
    Do you know,
    Do you know,

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed