Monday, March 26, 2007

someone redefine friend, thank you

i am angry.

i feel like leaving that as my post cuz i am restricted from stating why i'm angry.

but i'm just so bloody angry. i want to strangle someone. maybe even someone in particular.

i REALLY hate hypocrites. i hate it when someone says something but the way they act tell a completely different story.

i wish i could just say everything and tell the whole world why i'm angry. i wish i could just blurt it all out without giving any crap about whether or not you feel bad.

because you know what? YOU DIDN'T GIVE A CRAP EITHER. YOU SAY YOU DID BUT YOU DIDN'T, YOU FREAKING SILVER TONGUED MONSTER.

and yet... i can't hurt you. because i choose to be a better friend, person, being than you.

IT'S SO FRUSTRATING.

it feels like i have 2 people in me, one wanting to lash out at everything and one just wanting to be heard, to be understood... correctly.

i feel so used, so mistaken, so taken for granted.

it hurts the most that i was a consideration for your own personal, SELFISH, CONCEITED SATISFACTION. WHY?!

and the whole time, you knew. you were consciously aware of what was happening... but you let it happen.

thanks. really. thanks so freaking much.

the butterflies played at 6:30 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 0 of them free

i'm the butterfly catcher

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  • odd, loyal, random, blunt

my butterfly catching days


the blissful sounds of the world


    • -:- Do You Know - Enrique Iglesias

    Do you know
    Do you know
    Do you know

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    If birds flying south's a sign of changes
    At least you can predict this every year
    Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
    I can’t get it to speak
    Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
    I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
    Look in your eyes to see there's something about me
    I’m standing on the edge
    and I don’t know what else to give

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    How can I love you How can I love you
    How can I love you How can I love you
    If you just don’t talk to me, babe

    I flow through my act
    The question is she needed
    And decide all the man I can ever be
    Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
    I could never see us ending like this
    Seeing your face no more on my pillow
    Is a scene that’s never happened to me
    But after this episode I don’t see,
    you could never tell the next thing life could be

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know,
    Do you know,
    Do you know,

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed