Wednesday, May 16, 2007

clear the way, she's gonna blow!

i have approximately 12 days before the deadline for acceptances.

acceptances received: 0
rejections received: 2
nothing received: 5
rejections expected: 5
acceptances wanted: 1 (well... 5... but 1 that i really care about)
people disappointed: 3 for certain

jobs applied for: 0
jobs wanted to apply for: 3
jobs offered: 1

teachers wanted dead: 1
teachers i give a rat's bum about: 2
teachers wished for: too many

friends i'm annoyed at: 3
friends appreciated: 4
friends i expected more from: 2
friends lost: feels like 2 but i guess it's 1
friends i hope to connect with again: [edit] 0 (i don't wanna judge this person, but it's really getting to me. the more i see this person life, the more i dislike this person; this person's way of thinking, this person's lame excuses, this person's ignorance. frankly, i don't care about it anymore. i don't want to connect to this person if i don't have to. please, just get out of my life.)
friends staying (no uni): if lucky, 1

days looked forward to: 5
days not looked forward to: 3
days needed for recovery: 365+
days i may receive for recovery (if no uni): 365-
days regretted: too many

times i've told myself i'm a failure: way too many
times i thought about life and cared: not too many
times i should've taken life seriously: too many
times i looked back on and called myself stupid: way too many

times i just didn't give a damn: way way too many

what else is there, really? 12 days... that amount of time determines my future. how depressing. *tear*

the butterflies played at 10:50 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 3 of them free

i'm the butterfly catcher

  • seese/si si
  • Christian
  • 4bg/hbg/c
  • odd, loyal, random, blunt

my butterfly catching days


the blissful sounds of the world


    • -:- Do You Know - Enrique Iglesias

    Do you know
    Do you know
    Do you know

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    If birds flying south's a sign of changes
    At least you can predict this every year
    Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
    I can’t get it to speak
    Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
    I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
    Look in your eyes to see there's something about me
    I’m standing on the edge
    and I don’t know what else to give

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    How can I love you How can I love you
    How can I love you How can I love you
    If you just don’t talk to me, babe

    I flow through my act
    The question is she needed
    And decide all the man I can ever be
    Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
    I could never see us ending like this
    Seeing your face no more on my pillow
    Is a scene that’s never happened to me
    But after this episode I don’t see,
    you could never tell the next thing life could be

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know,
    Do you know,
    Do you know,

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed