Wednesday, May 09, 2007

temper tantrums

i wish i could have those w/o people freaking out about it.

i don't know how many people i snapped at today. it wasn't a good thing and oddly, everyone seemed to be on my bad side today. they say the perfect thing to make me snap. it's really, really weird... and i don't like it.

got pissed off at ho today.. no matter what i say, the guy's skull is so bloody thick. the feeling is as if i have no control over my own feelings (odd phrasing... w/e). everyone is so... narrow minded. so selfish, so conceited, so arrogant... so freaking annoying, dammit. it's so... so.... -stupid-.

i'm thinking of the many times my feelings were neglected and probably completely forgotten. i mean, my own very close friend ignores how i feel. i sat there, watching you and him... and i saw the look on your face. i don't care what it's about... i care whether or not you thought about me... and what you guys looked like through my eyes. it really hurt you know. a lot. but i'm guessing you never even imagined that i'm troubled over this. that's what hurts the most. what kind of a friend am i to you? how can you do this to me...

and now i don't even know what i feel. -_-

it's not clear, i know. it's not supposed to be. you're not supposed to know who or what i'm talking about, alright. but my, how i wish i could just tell the whole world, spew out my feelings so i don't have to sulk over them anymore. i'm just so. damn. ANGRY.

and sad i guess...

but really, when was there ever a day in my life where i wasn't sad.

the butterflies played at 10:37 p.m.
-:-people in the crowd set 3 of them free

i'm the butterfly catcher

  • seese/si si
  • Christian
  • 4bg/hbg/c
  • odd, loyal, random, blunt

my butterfly catching days


the blissful sounds of the world


    • -:- Do You Know - Enrique Iglesias

    Do you know
    Do you know
    Do you know

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    If birds flying south's a sign of changes
    At least you can predict this every year
    Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
    I can’t get it to speak
    Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
    I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
    Look in your eyes to see there's something about me
    I’m standing on the edge
    and I don’t know what else to give

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed

    How can I love you How can I love you
    How can I love you How can I love you
    If you just don’t talk to me, babe

    I flow through my act
    The question is she needed
    And decide all the man I can ever be
    Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
    I could never see us ending like this
    Seeing your face no more on my pillow
    Is a scene that’s never happened to me
    But after this episode I don’t see,
    you could never tell the next thing life could be

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away.
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed.

    Do you know,
    Do you know,
    Do you know,

    Do you know what it feels like
    loving someone
    that’s in a rush to throw you away
    Do you know what it feels like
    to be the last one
    to know the lock on the door has changed